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Lorne ([personal profile] nomorekaraoke) wrote2010-08-10 10:30 am
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[In Need of a Friend]

That morning, waking up was the most confusingly lovely thing he'd ever done. It was wonderful, and scary and thrilling at the same time, and it made him feel like something had sucked his heartbeat right up to his chest. It was so wonderful it left him feeling slightly giddy, ever so slightly nauseous with overwhelming excitement.


~*~


He's been smoking all day, walking around the place like he's a very antsy alarm clock just waiting to go off. He'll start screaming soon. If he stops moving, he'll start throwing things around and upset his neighbors, and he'll scream and then he won't know how to stop.

Maybe if he just keeps breathing, he'll be fine. Maybe the smoke will keep him warm enough that he doesn't notice just how empty his too big apartment is. But why stop there? Why not include his whole life into the equation?

Lighting up the last cigarette in his last pack of them, Lorne takes a long, unsteady drag and exhales. Even his breath sounds like death warmed over, and suddenly he's struck by another string of thoughts. His record's stuck on repeat: I don't want to be alone

I don't want to be alone!

I don't want to


He picks up his cell phone off the coffee table, going through his call log and picking out the only number he can trust. And what does he get for it? He gets the answering machine. 'Hi, this is Beth. You know what to do after the beep.'

"Beth, are you there? I didn't know who else to call...but I'm having a really bad day, and I'm not dealing very well, and I just think I need someone to talk to. I didn't know who else to call, I'm sorry if this is totally inappropriate, I just... Call me when you can, all right?"
sunnydalealum: (Beth Lehrer)

[personal profile] sunnydalealum 2013-06-12 03:54 pm (UTC)(link)
A nod, trying for reassuring. "We're almost there."

The familiar green logo is right ahead of them, and for a miracle, the place isn't too crowded.
sunnydalealum: (Beth Lehrer)

[personal profile] sunnydalealum 2013-06-12 03:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Beth gets a mocha, and wraps her hands around it while she waits for Lorne to finish doctoring his latte.

"It's pretty empty in here," she says quietly. "You wanna sit down, or keep moving?"
sunnydalealum: (Beth Lehrer)

[personal profile] sunnydalealum 2013-06-12 04:02 pm (UTC)(link)
She takes the seat opposite him, and takes a small sip of her drink.

(The he registers; she notices it and moves past it in the space of a second.)

A very soft mm-hm when he stops, just enough to let him know she's listening.
sunnydalealum: (Beth Lehrer)

[personal profile] sunnydalealum 2013-06-13 02:03 pm (UTC)(link)
So far everything he's saying sounds like something good.

It's making her dread what has to be a hell of a twist ending coming up.
sunnydalealum: (Beth Lehrer)

[personal profile] sunnydalealum 2013-06-13 02:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Slowly, Beth lowers her cup back to the table.



"Oh."

Stupid useless syllable, oh. But she can't think of anything else to say.
sunnydalealum: (Beth Lehrer)

[personal profile] sunnydalealum 2013-06-13 02:50 pm (UTC)(link)
That sound in his voice makes her throat ache.

Without thinking, she reaches out a hand and rests it on his arm.
sunnydalealum: (Beth Lehrer)

[personal profile] sunnydalealum 2013-06-13 02:57 pm (UTC)(link)
"It's okay."

She reaches for the small pile of napkins on the table, and passes him one.
sunnydalealum: (Beth Lehrer)

[personal profile] sunnydalealum 2013-06-13 03:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, am I ever the wrong person to ask about that, she thinks.

Small-voiced: "Well ... you don't have to tell him, do you?"
sunnydalealum: (Beth Lehrer)

[personal profile] sunnydalealum 2013-06-13 03:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Beth bites her lip.

(She has a pretty good idea who the guy might be.)

"You could," she starts, and stops.
sunnydalealum: (Beth Lehrer)

[personal profile] sunnydalealum 2013-06-13 10:30 pm (UTC)(link)
"... Write him a letter?" she offers, hesitantly. "Or, or if you have any, um, friends in common ...?"
sunnydalealum: (Beth Lehrer)

[personal profile] sunnydalealum 2013-06-14 05:22 am (UTC)(link)
Beth straightens a little bit, her brows tugging together. "You've got lots of friends."
sunnydalealum: (Beth Lehrer)

[personal profile] sunnydalealum 2013-06-14 05:24 am (UTC)(link)
Why can't you afford to make friends? she almost asks, and then doesn't.

She knows why.
sunnydalealum: (Beth Lehrer)

[personal profile] sunnydalealum 2013-06-14 05:26 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh my god."

Her voice is tiny, and softened with sorrow.

"How awful for you."

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